i think i am better. i think i can say i am getting better. this weekend i slept. i didnt bathe. i didnt eat. i just slept. it was close to bad but i didnt really care enough to think about how i was feeling. l was too busy thinking about something. im not even sure what. i played a lot of piano. it was weird. i also taught myself a lot about major minor diminished and augmented triads. its a lot easier to understand when youre looking at a piano. at least. to me it is. i'm glad i have people that i call friends.