The question

I now know that I would rather be really normal and really happy than really skinny and really crazy. This is more than an epiphany; this is taking back my life.

Watch your step

Throwing up and increased drinking generally arent  good signs of anything. I hope its nothing. I really do love my psychotic dog.

"In memory, everything seems to happen to music."

positively 4th street

run run as fast as you can

at least 7 miles was good yesterday. next year i want to run the Indy Mini and the Geist Half. i guess i'm not running any races this year other than the marathon. its slightly alarming. why aren't there more races on sundays? i can't just take every saturday off to go pay someone to time me while i run however many miles. but i really wish i could. i guess i'll run this half in Batavia even though the course has the dreaded "rolling hills." UGH

My impending doom

I finally got up the courage to email my Olaf professors for letters of recommendation. I felt totally stupid about going on and on about my stupid life but I hope they understand. I actually just hope they remember who I am. All this time, I thought I was a pretty memorable person, even if for the wrong reasons, but now I'm not so sure. I can't believe I'm applying in a few months, this is terrifying. I can't believe I have to request transcripts from Olaf, NIU, Syracuse, and Harper and then have them sent to U of I, U of M, Purdue, Kansas State, and Oregon State. Before that, I pretty much have to get a perfect score on the GRE on June 23rd. And before THAT I have to figure out how to get an A in physics and make sure I keep my A in stats. Then I have to celebrate Eric's 21st birthday and hopefully convince him that Gameworks is actually not a cool place to go for any day let alone for your 21st birthday.

No subject. Ever.

I'm worried about the direction my life is taking. Who am I? Im exhausted. With my life.

what is the rest of my life?

recurring dreams almost every night. i wrote a poem as i was falling asleep and i rhymed every line with hour. it was pretty bad. this morning i wrote a haiku comparing my contacts to jelly fish. thank god i don't remember it. other than something about both swimming freely in a sea of saline. i ate too much today.

Irony

If you hate everyone on Facebook and you hate all status updates and everything that Facebook "stands for," why not just delete it? Why do you care so much about what everyone else is saying that you feel the need to retort  via a new status? I just don't get how its worth the energy.

In other news I ate half of a large Lou malnatis thin crust.