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"who in the rainbow can show the line where the violet ends and the orange tint begins? distinctly we see the difference of the colors, but when exactly does the one first blendingly enter into the other? so with sanity and insanity."- billy budd

"I'm not here. this isn't happening. i'm not here. i'm not here."

i believe in medication


ITS SO UPLIFTING. FUCK YEAH.

i was barely off the medication when the walls started closing in again.

is this worth it?
tell them that i truly tried.

I AM THE CAUSE TO ALL YOUR PROBLEMS. I HOPE YOU COME DOWN WITH SOMETHING THEY CAN'T DIAGNOS, DON'T HAVE A CURE FOR

OH IT HURTS TO BE THIS GOOD


OKAY, I BELIEVE YOU, BUT MY TOMMY GUN DON'T.

i believe in medication and i believe in therapy
and i believe in crystal light
cause i believe in me yeah
it's so uplifting
fuck yeah
i barely have motivation
they say i suffer from a lack of serotonin synapses
they happen too infrequently for me to be functioning properly
i took the pills i took the advice the panic stopped
but i'm still not right
racing thoughts and wasted time
it's the same old story-line
this is my nursery rhyme and it goes:
i believe in medication and i believe in therapy
and i believe in crystal light
cause i believe in me yeah
it's so uplifting
fuck yeah
i'm barely off the medication
and now the walls are closing in again
i can't breathe and i can't bleed
will you be my alibi?
tell them that i truly tried to give in?

Last call for societal knockdowns
Smashing my endeavors
Cuz they’re based on someone else’s song
Melodrama and a bottle of wine, yea
Here’s to self expression
Here’s to every one night stand
Bring back the days that fell behind
I’m a waste of conversations in the corner of an empty room

A-bi
C-co
C-sc
S-ne
G-pi
M-gi
D-be
C-le
H-we


courtney's a working woman.

you dont think i understand. little holes in parachutes won't leaving and if they do, its because you want land.

carter, you thug master.

i'll get over you. i know i will. i'll pretend my ship's not sinking. and ill tell myself i'm over you, cause im the king of wishful thinking.

its funny when someone thinks they know everything thats going on and so they jump to conclusions and place false accusations on people for things they know nothing about. this is funny because if they really knew what was going on, or even had the faintest idea, they'd feel pretty fucking bad for the shit they just pulled. its lame to talk shit. so give it up.

Shes not aN idiot. if anything she locked on before anyone else the personality being cultivated. she is muy inteligente. haha.

darling, all of these awkwardjumpstartstalling conversations
mean much more to me than anything
it comes down to me and you
and whether we're supposed to or not, we still will
we're so much better off than them

Thanks Carter. and Thanks Chris.

i LOVE brand new. LOVELVOELVOEOVELVLEVOEVLEOVELVOELVOEVLOVE

ill leave on the final note of


"How about that election of 1800"


so until further notice, this is audrey bilasfhskyfoisujvno signing off.

due to "problems at school" the updates on this site will be less and less frequent until i save past posts and copy every single one of them onto a new blog that teachers at school do not have access to. i dont really want to get rid of this. and i probably won't. since the choke is a big name that has a lot of stuff going on under it, i might just create a new blog, an *underground* one if you will, that way i wont have to delete any other blogs that just may be registered under this user name. so my day didnt suck enough before all this happened, thanks everyone who made it possible. but no serious thanks to certain teachers who really made me feel better. i'm not putting any names down because now teacher(s) at school know this site and iw ouldnt want them to feel excluded from my praise. there are though, some teachers at schaumburg that deserve a lot of respect and theyve really changed me a lot and its quite a visible change to most, but in environments where i just don't see the real effort to reach out and impact students, my behavior is less than dignified.


NHS is overrated and monica long has formed the newer and much better club of NQHS which would stand for not quite honor society. so i plan to actually follow up on this club. i want t-shirts?i think that would be cool? maybe not. so that is the life isnt it? i'm trying to not care soo much about these petty things that rank high in our superficial highschool society. ill make a new blog but in the mean time check up on my dead journal since no one in d211 knows THAT user name. id link it here but that would kind of defeat the purpose eh?

well i didnt get into NHS because im a moron.

"appARENTLY"

i've got a motivation problem so my standard break from life is getting longer

i wish i could waste my time without wasting all of your time. you say im fixable, a classic case, lack of will. i say i dont want to try, i'd rather sit here ALL NIGHT.

I'm glad you can't comment on this anymore, because no one commented, so it kind of seemed pointless.

I'm just listening to the new blink 182. i gotta regret rightnow. i'm feeling this. i am really. i can't wait till the cd comes out because im going to be all over that. turn all the lights down now. my breathing just got too loud. i got yelled at today at play practice because im so negative.

im a bitch.

and i have a huge ZIT on my forehead and its the kind that doesnt pop, it just sits there and hurts. FANTASTIC. oh ha.

by the way, tomorrow, october 8th, is Alexandra Chmiel's 17th birthday. i have yet to get a present but i plan on doing that soon. lol. pretty soon yeah.

ive had long black veil stuck in my head all day. it makes me really depressed. life in general depresses me. my apathetic outlook on life is shadowed by a long black veil itself. i still don't know what color to paint my room

im going to new york with Courtney and my mom on thursday. so that should be cool. life is tough right now. i'm not sure where i'm going. i know who i was, but i still dont know who i am.

i don't know what you heard about me, but a bitch cant get a dollar out of me.

i'm a mother fucking P-I-M-P.

does she like me cuz im from new york?

so the only way to really archive on this thing is to show the last 50 days posts. i hope everyone is as amused with that as i am.

I'm sorry that i'm such a mess, i drank all my money could get. I took everything you let me have and then i never loved you back.

i'm sickly

And I will flail under these lights that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists together and feel an ocean breathing waves, feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
The nightingales are singing now.
They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees.
Their jewelery is thrown into the air.
They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground.
The trumpets call out now.
We're home at last.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.

i love saves the day.