Its only been a few days but i can feel it falling apart. I saw you and sarah and joe driving today. I dont think you noticed me. Then i called you later but you didnt answer. I saw your mom and patrick at dairy queen last night. I wish i could explain to you how shitty this all makes me feel. and how shitty i feel that you don't even notice.

I'm frustrated. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. Why don't you ever ask me to hang out with you and joe but you ask sarah to right in front of me. Its like you can never spend more than half an hour with me at a time. I hate to say it, but its sounding more than a little familiar to the way keiko used to act. I mean you're my best friend but I feel like I'm gradually drifting farther away from being yours. I've tried to confront you about it but i don't know if it makes any sense to you. But really thats all i can do. Now i will just sit back. I'm not sure if you will read this but its more for me anyway. I'm not going to stop calling you and i dont really want to know what would happen if i did. I just hope this isnt permanent and eventually we'll go back to being inseperable again but unfortunately i have a feeling that isn't exactly in the cards for us. Now all i can do is sit back and wait and hope.