tonight i watched resevoir dogs with carter. it was a really good movie but... it ended right in the middle... it just like stopped. it didnt even tell us what happened at the begining. oh well i liked it anyway. after the movie i laughed more in 45 minutes of being with carter than i have in like the last week. i wish i could remember everything. it was so funny. oh man carter. you've stolen my heart. i also started my guitar today but thats not important. oh man carter is the funniest person ever.

wel its just about time for bed. i finished my art critique and im feeling pretty good. i think im going to cuddle up in bed and watch some tv before drifting off into a peaceful slumber. ahh im in such a nice mood right now. "i can't remember all the times i try to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass"

today i woke up early to do homework that i didnt do. i still need to do an art critique i just remembered. fuck. ill have to do that after this. i went over to carters at around 1230 and hung out with him and cebo and then we went to best buy and carter got donnie darko and then we went back to carters and went to the donnie darko website and then took cebo home and went back to my house where we sorted tiles for an hour or so and then i drove carter home late as usual. its going to be a long week.

I think its safe so say im falling for you.... really hard.

i dont know what that means.... it was all subconsious. whatever. i need to fall.

there is nothing i want more right now than to breathe you in. my heart could explode at any moment so before i die, burn me into the stars. there is nothing i want more than to leave this place in a blinding light that leaves a fatal mark over the desolate and empty soul of someone who didn't care enough to hold on.

there have been many times in my life when my emotions get the best of me and i end up breaking down. tonight im listening to bright eyes and i can't help myself, i feel like i haven't cried in so long. A Perfect Sonnet is one of those songs that makes you want to run away in the freezing cold 3 miles just to fall into someones arms. its driving me crazy. i can't do anything except think. no matter how much i think or dwell on or overanalyze something, it will never change. if i was influential i could take over the world. if i didnt think so much i think i would be happier. ill settle for thinking. i feel more aware.

unofficial best sex scene in a movie: jack and rose in the back seat.

AWOL------- we all know what that stands for. hahahahaha

its almost april fools day i need to start thinking about a prank. it will probably be really really lame and not even worth doing. boooooo. i do have a super cool canada hoodie though! not related. well im bored and hungry. maybe ill go take a look see at the food next door.

so last night i went to the carmel sutra eli lenore 504 plan show aka Bands Gone Wild!!!!! carmel sutra did fabulous i must say. after they played i listened to a bit of eli and then went into the hang out room to hang out haha i basically just watched people play pool. after they got bored with that we decided to go back to carter's. gerry said he would meet us there but never ended up showing. we decided we were hungry on the way home and stopped at mc donalds. we even made up a song for it in the car. at carters house we watched out Untitled Movie. i really wanted to watch HalloweeM 11 because its so fucking funny but it was at alex's house. i slept over at sarahs last night with court and today i came home showered and then headed off to carters. we didnt really do much before cebo called and wanted to hang out so we went and picked him up and then went to sarahs where we basically ate until carter decided it was time to go back to my house where we listened to helmet and korn and i was enlightened. now im just waiting for carter to get back from dinner at the relatives so we can have a quickie (haha) before calling "the gang" and going next door to the dinner madness of the neighborhood. there is that show tonight. i doubt im going. i don't have any money to be throwing around. i bought $30 worth of mosaic supplies today and got the march roll of film developed. some nice shots on that camera. this week has been a blast. my music awareness has increased a lot.

i need to research.

at the drive-in- Hourglass...
.... download this...

at the drive-in- Hourglass...
.... download this...

No lies, just love.... always...

I'm in a big mood for donnie darko. i really want to watch it tonight but i KNOW i won't stay up for the whole thing because as everyone knows im passed out 10 minutes into the movie. its just the way i am. We need to start making our own kind of movies like the halloweens because they are so funny. i feel like if i ever tried to make them they would just be really lame and UNfunny.

"am i dreaming? is this really me? because i've never felt so not lonely. and if this could be real right now then every day for the rest of my life i will search for moments full of you. but lets home tomorow won't cave in because im looking for someone to change me."
-saves the day

well today was fun. i hung out with "the gang" and we went to pizza hut for lunch, it was nice. definitely ate my money's worth. tonight we watched all four halloweens that carter and alex and nick and cebo made. the last one was by far the best. it was so funny. i havent laughed that hard in so long. right now im drinking coke and its not diet, the only reason i am drinking it is because it was just there in the fridge and i decided iw as thirsty but not thirsty enough to go all the way out into the garage to get a diet. man regular tastes so weird after like 6 months of straight diet coke.i need to finish fahrenheit 451 tonight because i still need to order my mosaic glue and do the ap euro packet.

Well i set my TV to wake me up at 10:30 and then i hopped in the shower and got ready for the day. today we are going to sarah's softball game at 12. yeah sarah! weeeeeeee. i want to do something so fun today but i can't think of it. oh god i still need to order my mosaic glue! shit i am going to be in so much trouble. boooo ill see you in hell gifted. i have all the necessary items for mosaicing. and i haven't done ANY research on the history of mosaics. im fucked basically. well ohh well thats just life i suppose. the dog was going insane today barking at nothing. it was really annoying. man i am up so early i don't know what to do with myself. i need to work on my website some more because its starting to slack, its not even near being done and its slacking. well thats sad. i also have an ap euro packet, an art critique, and a book that need to be finished by monday. hahahahahahahahaha ohhhhhhh silly audrey, why do you procrastinate so? i think im going to shower every other day. i like feeling clean.

well today we're going downtown and it should be fun. i think. we have no idea what we are going to do. but it should be fun anyway. im planning on wearing RBF its been a while since ive worn it. this is a pretty lame blog post. yesterday i was with carter for about 11 hours haha maybe 10.5 either way. thats a pretty long time lol. we made this awesome movie last night with cebo and the looon. hahaha it was so funny. everyone has to watch it. im serious. gerry walks into a wall and its so funny. oh man. oh man. okay i need to take courtney home.

i showered today. i feel clean.

last night we watched all the mighty ducks movies in chronological order. it was awesome. we actually only got through about half of the third one because it was 1:30 in the morning and courtney wanted to go home so. Coach bombay has a new coach bombay jacket every seen!!!! ohh yeah go Wu! he's a slick ass. man the mighty ducks rule! courtney and sarah are the bash brothers and me and carter are connie and her nameless scarf wearing boyfriend. but i didnt like that because i wasnt a main character so i changed myself to banks. because banks rules! even though hes too good. "this is slime!" this is ooooooze.... oh court youre not such a slick ass. sarah kept making fun of charlie and calling him a pussy. she's really critical of the mighty ducks in an UN-cool way. we also figured out that laura tracy is Carp even though i think she should be Goldburg. oh man his gut is like a protruding spaceship!.

today i woke up at fucking 10:30 can you believe it? i slept downstairs so i knew i woudlnt get a long sleep but 10:30 jeez. the stupid dog woke me up because it started barking at the fertilizer guy. damnit katy. oh well. i proceeded to come upstairs and read a few blogs and then update this one. there isn't much to say right now. hmmm i think hmm i don't really know. last night i was watching that freddie prinze jr movie Head Over Heals and i couldn't stop watching it and it was sooo bad. Just like the lifetime television for women movies that are so awful but you can't stop watching. its like a weird magnetic pull. okay now im just typing really fast and thats the only reason im updating this. my throat hurts. okay courtneys here now. time to do some REAL damage in the ktichecnnenensmdfhskjhfa;skgjairughnsd,fmhsiudkgjedsfluhsdlgd

this dog won't stop farting.

tonight was............................ fun. ha ha ha. today we drove around and carter and gerry shot spitballs at cars and then tonight sarah and courtney and carter came over and we drove to mc donalds in sarahs pick up and me and carter got to sit in the back! it was so coooooooool! and then! we realized that we don't have any other friends besides eachother lol. it was.... nice! but we drove around anyway and then came back to my house and played the Nutrition Fact Trivia game and wow are we lame or what. then we watched like 15 minutes of pulp fiction. it was fun. fun ufnufnufnufnfunufunffunnfufnufnufnufnufn. i am so tired now. sooo soososos tired. i want to watch the rest of pulp fiction. iiiii want to. .... do a lot of things. man i am so tired. i could go to sleep right now.

"i wish i was an astronaut."

at the drive-in

this morning when i was brushing my teeth i was using warm water, which is unusual because i use cold water, and it reminded me of this day in new jersey when i discovered that dominique uses warm water to brush her teeth and was her face. now washing the face i can understand, but warm water for brushing the teeth? thats just gross. haha. then it made me remember other parts of that trip like searching for out P.S.M.'s (potential soul mates) and failing because we never found them. but we took over 14 sets of pictures in the dollar photo booths. she's online now. but i don't think i'm going to IM her. i wouldn't really knwo what to say. "hey dominique remember new jersey? yeah that was pretty rad" you can't just bring up past events and hope to build real conversations off of them. I wish i could still talk to her about everything i used to talk to her about. and i wish i could still act so stupid with her and walk around doing really pointless things like putting bumper stickers on random cars. i wish i could just act stupid with her because acting stupid by myself all the time is kind of lonely. i knwo we both have different friends and different life styles now. and i know it would be next to impossible to get back what we had. but i just think of all the fun ive had with her and it just makes me kind of sad. i mean its not everyday your best friend sees your grandma get attacked by biting flies and then jumps into freezing cold lake superior with you. i just have this hard time with letting go of the things that really mademe laugh.

Carter is the most amazing person. tonight i hung out with him and gerry and we went to ihop and then went and rented Not Another Teen Movie. i don't reccomend it. the only funny part is when the dildo is flapping around in the cake. haha that part is pretty funny. carter is ridiculously good looking and i want him. today i burned the slowest mix ever. its pretty good i also learned the correct way to play the tambourine.

At the Drive-In is really cool.

I want to tell you something. but i'm not sure if i know. i want to tell you now but i'm scared of what you'll say. i think it might be true. but i'm scared of what you'll do. i just want to say these three words to you... ummm "did you fart?" hahahhahahaha. i'm so clever.

I don't mean to be critical. i just wish i could understand and know everything. impossible? HA perhaps for some. but i.... I will someday RULE the world!

today was tiring even though i did nothing. i just want to read farenhighsihtjkrng 451 now but i dont knwo what i did with the book. i should find it. soon/ damn. war is stupid. the whole world should just be destroyed now by some form of unpredicted extreme radiation instead of having to wait hundreds of years for global warming to have the final say with the green house effect. everyday i go to school with people who don't care about the world around them. how can people be so content with their ignorance? like its an accomplishment to care about nothing but yourself. and like you're not the same as everyone else when you just ignore whats really going on. In all of my classes there has been not one discussion on the war. I think its almost sick. If its not about petty high school drama shit then the student body doesnt care. or maybe its not that they don't care. maybe they aren't capable of caring. maybe the idea of something bigger than themselves is a concept beyond their grasp. maybe i think too much.. about everything. the only part of my school day that i could possibly look forward to is english. i feel like the whole day leading up to english is gradually killing my much wanted brain cells and then they magically regrow in english. Maybe english is just a fun class with fun people but i think i really do think in that class... more so than others. and the fact that we actually have DISCUSSIONS about things that really matter in the world, materialism, immediate gratification, political correctness, makes the class that much more worth it. My next essay is going to be on materialism if i can choose. because thats a topic i can really delve into and meet my potential. whatever that may be.

Today was a pretty nice day. somewhat relaxed. carmel sutra rules. i listened to it all day. so yes. haaha. after school i did some homework and then carter came over and we watched some tv and attempted to watch dumb and dumber but my dvd is scratched so that sucks. oh well. only a few more days until spring break. cool. i'm pretty tired. i should go read some book. i like to do that. i need a job. if i wasn't too lazy to apply i might have one by now

My words are sharper than a thousand knives. while you stare me down i can only laugh. its only painfully obvious that your bitter heart has turned to stone and has been deprived a sense of felling. i laugh because youre alone. alone with yourself. you might as well who tell the world your suicide threats that you never intend on following up on. i'll stand here with this stupid smile while you soak in your sympathy. just avoiding the inevitable now. you know the secret i've always known. it will always leave you high and dry and expecting so much more. i hope someday your cry for help goes unanswered and you stare sheepishly at the crowd of no one surrounding you. i hope someday you understand your worthlessness. i hope someday my apathy will leave me so i will capable of loveing the most parasitical creatures i've encountered. You'll never forget this now.

I smell you all over me. and i can't get over that.

Your words lost meaning after they unintentionally broke down the barrier between loss and defeat. i feel inebriated without the high, just the insomniatic impulse to never close my eyes. closing my eyes and revealing vulnerability, accepting my imperfections, admiting i feel pain; these are events that take place only in my solitude but you wish you could bear witness to. only in your dreams. i'm as transparently lucid as you. and you're glass. i stay awake at all hours and at all costs. i can't reisk being hit by your rapid fire of vapid vulgarities. onver undulged youth, mispent adolescence has left me painfully unaware of my insignificance. don't tell me i belong.

today after school my aim wouldnt work so i attempted to read farerenfkjsndgjn 451 while lying in my bed under the covers. that was unsuccessful of course and i fell asleep and keiko rang the door bell a few times but i didnt hear and so then she just came inside and then we ate and started up my so-called life. Angela and Jordan were going to have sex soon when i put it on pause and came upstairs to try the whole aim thing again. And that brings us up to now. everyone is talking about sex. Last night my neighbor out of nowhere said to me "Don't have unprotected sex" or something to that extent. man sex. weird..,... or is it?

"I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made
And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape"

-blind melon

Maturity has very little to do with age. A realization that i recently came to upon analyzation of the people who i know and who i have known throughout my life. today was the warmest day ever. This weekend has been so nice and relaxing. watching movies with carter is something i wish i could do more often.

Today was pretty cool me and courtney and dave went and bought fabric because me and court were making purses. so then we went to the library and i got a new library card! yay! and i checked out the martian chronicles because i need to re-read it. after that me and court hung out and watched my so-called life for a while and then carter caleld and we went to the park and met him and gerry there. after a partial game of sky tag gerry left and carter courtney and i went back to my house and watched ice age and played with my neighbors because they are cute. now i'm listening to master of the house. a great song from les mis. I need to shower because i still smell like campfire.

First of all. People who buy classic marilyn monroe movies just because they've heard they are good are so lame. Some Like it Hot is a classic of our time yes but since when was marilyn ever suprisingly good? she's an amazing actress and always has been. The reason she was ever noticed in the first place was because she was an actress. People can be so dumb when it comes to movies. What about Gentlemen Prefer Blondes? or The Seven Year Itch? or Niagra?! when did Some Like it Hot all of a sudden become the movie to which all other marilyn monroe movies are compared? yes a great film, but dude, she's more than just a pretty face. people just love to assume that. a perfect example of our judgemental and close-minded society. just shoot me.

im so tired and ready for bed. i think im going to cuddle up with some ray bradbury and drift off nice and ensconsed in my bed.

Okay so today was pretty fun and i am worrrn out. it started well i went shopping with mom and bought some skirts and capris and then it was off to alyssas to pick her up and then go to carters. when we arrived at carters we decided to go to the park to play "Sky Tag" commonly known as Stay Off the Sand or Sand Tag. That was fun. we met a bunch of new little kids who are REALLY cool. i really love little kids i think they rule. i hope i'm a cool mom. Anyway after sky tag we were hungry so we headed off to the grand opening of one of the many subways. It was a pathetic grand opening but an interesting experience none-the-less. So then BACK to Carter's of course and we settled in for the most intense burping extravaganza ever. we even recorded a few. alyssa has a natural talent. This brought on the idea of chugging milk to the point of vomiting. we, of course, then had to do it. So we went to dominicks and i bought skim and cebo bought whole. Then we went back to my house and started a fire in the backyard so we could see. After about half of my gallon i puked everywhere. it was like a hose. it was soooo gross but apparently it was extremely funny to see. so while i was covered in puke and my eyes were tearing i watched cebo puke all his milk out. it was pretty funny i have to admit. except a lot of it comes out your nose and i can still taste the puke like in the back of my throat or something. Anyway we also made some s'mores and then proceeded to my family room for a few rounds of chess between cebo and alyssa and the viewing of ice age. a classic Pixar of our time. That's about all that happened and man it wore me out. on my list of things to do this weekend i have done 2 things. 1 and 5. i have sort of done 2 but not to the extreme that i had wanted. i dont think 4 is ever going to happen and 3 is doubtful this weekend. today was nice. ohh carter.

Things to do this weekend
1. Go shopping for summer clothes
2. read
3. finish turnabout and february pages.
4. start ap euro packet
5. don't think or overanalyze simple situations.

I'm feeling out of touch and somewhat lost. i"m not sure how to act and im not sure what to do. i just wish i could read your mind then i would be able to knwo everything for sure. i probably don't want to knwo everything but i just sometiimes feel so out of place. boo. i don't ever know what to do. come enjoy this lonely sky with me. it will swallow us whole if we only let it.

So today was alright school-wise. i have come to the conclusion that i look forward to 8th period more than any other class. its actually the only class i do look forward to. Best class ever. its just so fun. i didn't really pay attention today but we talked about sci-fi and stuff and it was pretty cool. i like sci-fi. after school i walked home with keiko and dan and keiko was going to drive us home when we got to her house becuase dan had to be home for a track meet and the funniest thing happened! there was no car when we got there! haha it was so ironic. i laughed and ate and then eventually as fate would have it, keikos mom came home and then we got dropped off. tonight the PLAN is alyssa me carter cebo and gerry go swimming in hotel pools and then leave. and if that doesnt happen we drag a saucer with someone in it from the back of the car around the neighborhood. i doubt either of these things will happen and it will probably be a really lame night. BOOOOOOO my legs are burning from razor burn and i don't like it. ouchhh.


Today chris talked me into applying for a job at lifetime. i think im going to have to do that because it seems like an easy job and i need money. plus i can't think of anyplace better to work. i mean there's always michaels. so. hey. whatever. we'll see how it goes.

i think im going to go read some now. today is such a nice day.

today i watched 4 episodes of my so-called life and i went and got an application at michaels with courtney. i want a job that i can just read at all day. it seems like the best choice. i didnt really have any homework tonight and if i did i didnt really do it. today was tie dye day in chemistry and i have to be honest with you my shirt RULES! yes it does! i want to talk to carter right now. but since i don't have a topic worthy of sparking conversation im going to leave the phone alone. Turnabout pictures came back today. im happy with mine. i really like them. Carter looks like a stud no doubt, and i look well like me. so its okay i guess haha. i just realized i do have some chemistry homework. tonight i placed a bid on ebay for a $10 guitar. haha well. ha. i need it for my mosaics. its going to be cool.just you wait. i need to order my tumbled glass too. ill do that now

"And when I loose my ground
I can always remember
This is my reason
You are my reason to stay
I have shed this dry hard shell
Traded its comfort for your eyes
Played with denial
And then denied my own defenses
It's no longer a part of me
These questions, in security
You will always be the most magnificent creation"

- boysetsfire

"I'd love to be scattered to hell with you"

saves the day

"be a good girl. you gotta try a little harder. that simply wasnt good enough to make us proud."

Today was a nice day. i enjoyed myself. after a tiresome and dull day at school i went and ran some errands and carter came with. we stopped at petsmart and looked at the animals. it was nice. there was a miniature doberman pinsuireeskfjsdfj (spelling? ha ah) and it was wearing a red sweater!!!! i wanted to destroy its sweater... ha ... ha... yep that's awful. well it was amusing and i went to carters house and hung out and laughed for a while then came home did some ACTUAL WORK yes read that again if you had to AUDREY HAS DONE HOMEWORK so i think i deserve a pat on the back. i need to go buy some latex gloves because tomorrow is tie dye day in chem! and as if i wasnt messy enough as an individual, tomorrow i will be given staining chemicals to run around with. well. i'm just not funny tonight. bu't im fun. haha i put an apostrophe there! and its so funny i don't want to change it. haha oh man thats a good one audrey.

the song of the day is: Grand Detroit Pubahs- Sandwiches. hahahahahahagh

i cut my hair tonight and did nothing with my life. I thought about you though. a lot. i always wonder what youre doing, and if youre laughing... is that weird? i think it might be. oh well. like right now i bet you're asleep. i'm sitting here typing in this lame thing. i think i might get a livejournal instead of a blog. they seem more interactive. not like i have anyone to interact with but. you know.

"This is the closest to this friend that I have ever been.
I hope you find it on greener ground and bluer skies.
I hope you don't think less of me if I'm cold,
I don't want to watch you go.
I'll cry until I can't see the whites of your eyes for two more years.
We'll be old enough to know better,
young enough to pretend.
This is the last of my letters...
I hope I find my home and I hope you're the first one in it.
I know it won't be the same.
I'll be there if you need anything at all you want to be.
Run around the world with me.
State your distance but it's not a million miles away.
If this is what will really make you happy..
then I say we'll be old enough to know better,
young enough to pretend.
This is the last of my letters
until I see you again."

- Get UP kids.

I would like to congradulate myself on being a failure to society. Well the Schaumburg High School Girls Soccer Program society that is. FUCK YOU SOCCER ILL SEE YOU IN HELL! god damnit i try so fucking hard and i worked my ass off today and i didnt get "invited" to play with JV. fuck this political bullshit. i would go into it more deeply but ive done that about 5 times today and im tired of going over its stupidity in my head because it gets me nowhere. Aside from that, i'm kind of hungry and i have a big ap euro test tomorrow and i don't think i will do very well. i'll study tonight... of course... and make this powerpoint for english. I haven't talked to keiko or carter or courtney for a while. im going through withdrawls. i want to cuddle up and watch a movie and become *ensconsed* but i have too muchto do. so sad. poor audrey.

"But just then my knees give under me
My head feels weak and suddenly
It's clear to see it's not them but me
Who's lost my self-identity
And I hide behind these books I read
While scribbling my poetry
Like art could save a wretch like me
Some ideal ideology
That no one could hope to achieve
And I'm never real, it's just a sketch of me
And everything I've made is trite and cheap
And a waste
Of paint, of tape, of time."

"So that's how I learned the lesson
that everyone's alone
And your eyes must do some raining
if you're ever gonna grow
When crying don't help, you can't compose yourself,
it's best to compose a poem
An honest verse of longing
or a simple song of hope"

-bright eyes

i don't know how exactly people become friends. maybe its just one conversation sparked by a common interest. maybe its just completely accidental. or maybe its entirely planned out. i know i choose friends based on my strengths and weaknesses. the people who i consider my best friends are incomparibly better people than i am. and despite my bullheaded selfish nature, i am gradually begining to change. i still make mistakes. very often, and usually very grave. and i'm still just as insensitive as i was. but i'm slowly growing up. and i'm slowly learning that even though i make these incomprehensible mistakes, i get forgiven. because honestly my friends are amazing people. I haven't always been friends with amazing people. i suppose i never thought i deserved to be friends with the really really good hearted and wonderful people. after realizing that the people i was "friends" with didn't really care about who i was as a person at all, i realized that i didn't care about who anyone was as a person either. knowing this and trying to change and still making mistakes is like putting salt on an open wound. i'll never completely measure up to my friends, and ill never be as mature and forgiving as they are. I'll never be as cool. But i'm just glad they like me anyway.

I'm sorry times infinity

I'm sorry.

OH and also tonight i ruined a perfectly good friendship. Im just really good like that.

Tonight i saw the orchesis dance show and i saw almost all keiko's dances before leaving (reasons that won't be mentioned on this blog). Hung out with carter after that and talked and stuff. it was nice. earlier in the day i went out to lunch at panera with cebo and carter, and desperately wanted keiko's company too but dance ran late so that was a no go.

i wish i lived near the ocean and it was breezy and cold in the morning. and i could sit on the beach for hours. that would be nice. i think i'll dream about that tonight.

tonight was pretty fun. carter is hot.

I want to tell you that you make a difference to me and i don't know how to do it. you don't see yourself as anything more than ordinary and maybe you're not to anyone else. but i think youre amazing. and that's that.

"i think i'm turned around. i'm looking up. not looking down. and when i'm standing still watching you run, watching you fall... fall into me."

Azure Ray

"i watch and burn my own light as it dims a shade of you."

Azure Ray

Today i worked on that website some more, eventually it better be cool. or else. i scanned a lot of pictures. i didn't go to preseason. ha ha haha. ive been listening to azure ray a lot and tonight was the night of the FROST JR HIGH PLAY!!!! i went because amy and anthony were in it and they RULED! they are DEFINITELY my favorite 13 year olds EVER.

I have a lot of homework tonight. I'm too busy thinking about other things. You turn me on.

Today was a REALLY uneventful day at school. absolutely nothing cool or funny happened all day. i don't even think i really laughed. sad, i know. So after school i worked on my lame ass website again and im never showing it to anyone until its REALLY COOL which might possibly be never. i tried to set up a tagboard on it and i failed. So then carter came over and we watched... the Ring... it was amazing.. haha anyway. so tomororw i want it to be a snow day. and if its not... well then i'll have to shoot someone. ha just kidding. so someone slap me if i take a pointless stupid picture again because ive been doing it a lot lately and looking at my freshly developed roles of film has been leaving a lot to be desired. I've even started slacking in the scrap booking area. i have to head out to the old scrap book store because i still have a few friends to make pages for. lets just be honest with ourselves here, by the time i finish something, high school will be over.BHAh


PS: tonight was fun.

woah lack of updates here. but now i'm back. I've concluded this is basically just a log of my life for myself to look back on later. i don't think anyone besides emily occasionally and courtney when shes really bored looks at this. But ill update "myself" anyway