"Mr. Madison, what you've just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard. At no point in your rambling, incoherent response were you even close to anything that could be considered a rational thought. Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to it. I award you no points, and may God have mercy on your soul."
BILLLY! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah

Today i went to guitar center with court and sarah and i bought a new strap... its checkered. very nice very nice. then we went to the mall to try on sarahs dress again and i tried on mine too and put it on hold. i usually try to be so bizzzzzarre with my dresses but its getting hard and im too lazy to be eccentric. so good old jessica mcclintock here i come. its fine! the dress is fine im just not wearing shoes with it in the pics and stuff because well im too tall. BUT fine. well allllllllright.


So. i don't really know what else to say tonight....
ohhhh its greg's birthday today.
Happy Birthday.

I'm really tired tonight. i think i'll end up watching princess bride and going to bed. today i bought a friends file. YEAH! its nice. i need to learn to do more with this blog because its llaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeee.

"i sat watching a flower as it was withering,
i was embarassed by its honesty
so i prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
not this fucking wreck that's taken its place.
so please forgive what i have done
no, you can't stay mad at the setting sun
because we all get tired, i mean eventually
there's nothing left to do but sleep."

--Bright Eyes

my mood can crash faster than i can realize it.

Well today was a day indeed. so as i have previously stated on my other blog, i am having an Anti-Turnabout/Birthday party! so jump on the bandwagon and come on over! it will be held on the 22nd, naturally. Maybe even by then i will have a driver's license. hm thats cool! so... in other news... tomorrow is my final final. bahhh dum chhh. its ap euro. so right now im sort of in the process of reviewing but i want to play guitar more so i think i'll do that. damnit i had this great analogy for playing guitar earlier todya and now i cant think of what it was.

Hung up here on a web of comfort.
Taking off with nowhere to go.
Standing tall with but your new cloak armor.
Making out like it's all been done.
It's harder than it seems.
You slip but never fall.
They'll take you, when you wont come back to me.
Tearing down what we built up so well.
Layin low as you came my way.
Look alive with your head on backwards, goin off when there's nothin wrong.
It's only in your dreams, but it felt like it was real.
They'll take you, when you won't come back to me.
Hang loose, my friend dont walk away from me,
because i really think you're cool.
Is it worth turning back despite these open hands?
You're tearing me apart.
They'll take you, when you won't come back to me.
you need to find yourself

-- Jimmy Eat World- Seventeen

my song of the day is February 15th by Bright Eyes. its a nice song. it makes me cry. but then... what doesnt? whatever. im going to throw in some of the lyrics because i love them. i love it when bands write deep and meaningful lyrics that are actually moving as opposed to "i miss you. i like you please come back to me because i miss you and love you"

"And, I'm sorry about the phone call
And needing you
Some decisions you don't make
I guess it's just like breathing
And not wanting to
There are some things that you can't fake
Yeah, there are some things that you can't fake
I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago
Or a friend that you used to know
And there below his frozen face
you wrote the name
And that ancient date, that ancient date
And you can't believe he is really gone"
--Bright Eyes.

i think january is one of those months where you can only be happy if you are in a relationship. i also think turnabout sucks and now that i've gotten turned down so many times i feel completely and utterly worthless. so wow that was quite a turnabout from what i felt before i was rejected... except i still felt pretty worthless. At least now i know that well dances are over rated. i didn't even care about the dance so much, i just wanted a new dress because i found a pretty one. oh well. i guess today was just depressing. for more reasons than one. but hey what are you going to do. this is the first day of a life without emotions. that's a lie. i don't even make sense now. i just hurt and i guess rambling on and on is a sign of that. an idea i use as a prevention of tears. an idea i use over and over again despite its failing results. do you ever meet those people who seem okay but then after a while you start to feel somewhat uneasy around them. like you don't belong. or maybe you never did. then you start to push away. to no avail because they always win. its a lose lose situation. whether you buy in or fade away they win. they are the people who pretend to be your friends until they find out who you are. what's wrong with having different opinions? whats wrong with being different? whats wrong with being loud, or outspoken or enthusiastic. why does our society condone conformity yet at the same time encourage individualism. how is that even possible? why are people so materialistic? why does everyone lie?

Today sucked. what a day. now i dont feel good and tomorrow starts finals. i want to throw up.

A song for everyone:

Gio- Saves the Day- three miles down
Courtney- Mest- Electric Baby
Lauren- Frank Sinatra- Summer Wind
Emily- The White Stripes- Hotel Yorba
Carter- Simon and Garfunkel- I Am a Rock
Keiko- Billy Idol- Kiss Me Deadly
Harrison- Jets to Brazil- In the Summer's When You Really Know
Greg- Red Letter Day- Sorry About Wisconsin
Justin- Weezer- Butterfly
Sarah- Blondie- Sunday Girl
Dominique- Alkaline Trio- While You're Waiting
Jeanine- Dave Matthews Band- Satellite
Liz formerly known as beth- Dance Hall Crashers- Cricket
Chris- Yellowcard- Avondale
Chris Brady- Jimmy Eat World- Goodbye Sky Harbor
Jeanae- Bright Eyes- February 15th
Brams- Reggie and the Full Effect- Where's Your Heart
Tracy- Eric Clapton- Tears in Heaven
Charlie- Jimmy Eat World- Seventeen

i think when it comes down to it. the only thing that really matters in life is love. and well if you can't deal with that then youre fucked. after everything else goes away. after everything else gets old. after there's nothing left to buy, or see, or accomplish, there is always something left to feel. love isn't a competition. there are no winners and losers. Its not about how long you date a certain guy, and its not about knowing everything about the other person. Its not about anything except love. There are no limitations on love either. you don't have to be 18 or 21 or 35 to understand it. there are no borders being drawn with emotions. you feel them and you are capable of feeling them at any age. saying it is impossible to be in love in high school is a statement made out of complete ignorance. love is a feeling. but it not always synonymous with pain or loss or longing. getting dumped and feeling upset about it doesn't mean you were in love. although it is often mistaken for it. the amount of time you know someone has no effect on the amount of love you may have for them. although it grows over time, it doesn't have to start small. there is no need to fight about it. there is no need to be protective or paranoid. all the worrying is a waste of energy.

"Every mistake that I make,
I couldn’t have made without you."
get up kids

I love Jets to Brazil. yes they are definitely really nice. today i lost and practically got kicked off my soccer team. well. i suck. i never tried to pretend i was good. well. i guess thats life. finals are soon. maybe i can do well.

"You tell me to find someone else to love
Someone who'll love me, too, the way you used to do
But each time I go out with someone new
You walk by and I fall to pieces."

--Patsy Cline

well the 99 red balloons idea fell through because they all deflated before i got home. it was a pretty pathetic sight. so tonight is friday night and i'm hanging out with court and tray. okay so the funniest things that happened today:

1. ben got his carnation and figured out it was from me

2. ben in general eating his lunch.

3. my 100% on a math quiz.

4. courtney and tracy in general.

5. ben playing with the carnation after he got it.

6. Tray just saying "i'm sad" "i take it back, i take it back"


do you ever have those conversations with someone in the hall and then you are right in the middle of a conversation when they all of a sudden are like oh okay bye and they run off to their left so fast? i have one of those friends. her name is tracy and everyday after spanish i have to remember to get my story out ASAP becuase she runs off to the locker before you can get it out. oh tray. youre sad.

COME TO THE WINTER PLAY ON FEB 14TH AND 15TH!!!!!!!!

THE MUSICAL COMEDY MURDERS OF 1940!!!!!

CHARLIE'S BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i neeed a new sn pretty badly. anything is better than skippystd.

the song of today is!!!!!:

A winter's day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

-- Simon and Garfunkel

"It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you, it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no "exit" signs in love... there is only an "on" ramp."

When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes,
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry,
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready,
in heaven far above,
and that I'd have to leave behind,
all those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
for my whole life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,
just even for awhile,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you
and maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
that this could never be,
for emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
from His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity,
and all I've promised you".

"for today life on earth is past,
but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
but today will always last,
and since each day's the same day,
there's no longing for the past."

"But you have been so faithful,
so trusting and so true.
Though there were times you did some things,
you knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
and now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand
and share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
for everytime you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

i just found a poem that i have always wanted to post but never had enough room for. so i'll post it now. keep in mind just because i am putting this in here doesn't mean i feel this way right now. don't take it too literally; just enjoy.

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgement; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, wake up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our posessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've split the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men and short character; steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition. These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw-away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.

i'm caught up in a world that moves faster with less time. and has more time to do less. i'm going to look for this thing called the paradox of time and post it. its good. well parts of it are. ill edit it to gain your satisfaction. its hard to go day to day pretending you don't feel something you do.

"i'm slipping inbetween you and your big dreams; its always you in my big dreams." i don't know what to do. i want to crawl inside a small hole and never come out. my feelings never go the way i want them to. i know right now at this very moment what love is. i can feel it. and i don't care what anyone says because i know. this isn't easy, it's not complex... but its not easy... its alarming.

Everyday i don't tell you i love you know always that i do.


tonight was charlie's surprise party. it was pretty cool. i had a nice time.

"The time such clumsy time in deciding if it's time.
I'm careful but not sure how it goes.
You can loose yourself in your courage.
The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.
This is what she says gets her through it:
'If I don't let myself by happy now then when?'
If not now when?"
jimmy eat world

"Take in restraint like a breath.
My lungs are so numb from holding back."
jimmy eat world

tonight i went to the Post-basketball game DANCE. yes! it was the most fun i've had at a dance since homecoming freshman year!! i'm not joking. even though my lip is like breaking away with chappedness im still having fun.

"I fake it so real i am beyond fake. someday you will ache like i ache."
hole

friday night hell.

Audrey: Noble Strength
Courtney Jane: From the Court/ Gracious, merciful
Harold: Army Ruler
Jeanine: God is Gracious
Tracy: Brave
Charles: Manly, Brave
Sarah: Princess
Justin: Just or True
Michael: Who is like God?
Gregory: Vigilant, Watchful
Emily: Admiring
Keiko: Blessing
Jessica: Wealthy
Ben: Son of My Right Hand
Dominique: Of God
Lauren: Crowned with Laurel
Carter: Driver of a Cart
Allyson: Of Noble Birth
Amanda: Worthy of Love
Daniel: God is my Judge
James Tyler: Supplanter Tile Maker (i like that one lol)
Bernice: Brings Victory! yeah!
Thomas: A Twin
Zachary: Remembrance of the Lord

i forgot about this for a while. oops. well let's see. play practice is pretty fun... umm i don't want strock or hildi to make me cry though.. i hope that doesnt happen. lets see well i bought carnations and sent them to 3 people can you guess who? i bet so much money that you can't. right now i am listening to RX bandits- analog boy. i have huge blisters on my big toes and i should pop them soon.... hmm i just wrote an ap euro essay. oh so i was right about that ap euro test. i did get an A. cool huh? i know.

"there is a risk, there’s a risk when your dealing with love
you could snap my neck
any speed you drive can be dangerous ."
thrice

Today i have so much ap euro i think i might throw up. its definitely another up till 1:30 or 2 night. probably due to the fact that i don't do my homework until late. late late. i have a test in ap euro tomorrow. i just know im going to get an A+++++++++++. i need faith.

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

no need for reminding youre still all that matters to me. i feel like im staring blankly at the rest of my life and there is nothing there. the rest of my life scares me. will you remember me? when its all over? because i don't want to think of a life that exists without you in it... or at least the thought of you. you will always stay in my mind there is no doubt, the memory of you. letting go isn't a one time thing, its something you do over and over again everyday. how could i ever make you understand me when i dont even understand myself. i've lost friends gained friends and lost you. so we fight. we make up. we pretend to be friends. this time is different. there is no making up. no false friendships waiting at the end of the tunnel, because there isn;t even a light at the end of the tunnel. i feel like up till this point my life has been like a sad song constantly playing over and over again for almost 16 years. its a numbing song but i find comfort in the lyrics that talk about despair and failed love. this song has been my security blanket... and now its stopped... the song is over and i have to find a way to write the rest of the words myself. this is probably the worst analogy i could make but its the only one that i can think of to explain myself just a small amount. i think this is to personal for me to post, but i don;t think anyone really reads this anyway so i guess i will anyway. in case it wasn't too obvious this entire entry and probably the last 5 are about harrison. i'm tired of implying. i don't care what anyone says, i didn't choose to love him.

there's something lost somewhere inside
another darkened room where dreams all go to die
once more a tear drops slowly to my feet
again I recognize the triumph in defeat

so tell me what can I do when it all falls apart?
torn straight through tell me how to feel
my broken dreams a life in disarray
I shut my eyes my silence is my cell
cold sweats and nightmares keep me awake
the time keeps running down on how much I can take
ripped myself to pieces on the fragments of a dream
grim retrospective of a life torn at the seams

when the emptiness becomes too much
the voices lie I can't trust my touch
the pain of living the fear of death
you choose


good riddance

"I've been through this before
These things are hard to take
Was it too much to live for
Once choice you felt you had to make"

"Whats in the past cant be undone
You got to separate to become one
Your indecision hides the guilt
Just underneath your clouded eyes
So sick you'd sell your soul
For another fifteen minute lie"

"Disappointment follows me
Its always just behind
Self-doubt bred solitude
Frustration robs me blind
No pain no part of me
I have grown numb and cold
Self-centered fantasy
Obsessed with self control"

" i don't think i want to be another float
in your sad parade
and it makes me wonder is this how you've treated
all the friends you've made"

good riddance

"I miss you and it's so bittersweet."
good ridance

"everything i touch falls apart"
glasseater

1.What time is it? 12:16 am
2. Name: audrey
3. Birthday: 2-14-87
4. Location: schaumburg il
5. School/Mascot/Colors: uh shs saxon maroon and gold
6. Zodiac Sign: aquarius
7. Shoe Size: 9 1/2-10
8. Height: 5'8 or 9
9. Pets: none
10. Siblings: one
11. Eye color: blue
12. Hair color: light brown
13. Grade: sophomore.
14. Hobbies: writing, music, soccer, watching movies
15. Nicknames: um aud
16. What languages do you speak? english and some span.
17. Do you play sports? yes
18. Where were you born? hoffman estates
19. Are you a night or a morning person? Night
20. Are you ticklish? Not really but i guess it depends on the day
21. Do you believe in God? yeah
22. Getting Personal: i don't understand this
23. What do you want to be when you grow up? i haven't decided
24. What was the worst day of your life? not sure
25. What is your most embarrassing story? um i can;t pick im sure if youre reading this you know many.
26. What has been the best day of your life? so far prob. one of those summer days that lasts forever
27. What comes first in your life? friends
28. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? yeah some crushes.
29. What are you most scared of? spiders
30. If you had an extra set of eyes were would you put them? on my ass
31. What do you usually think about before you go to bed? harrison
32. About your friends yeah what about them?? yeah...
33. Whose your funniest friend? court
34. Who makes you laugh most? probably unintentionally tray
35. Who do you E-mail most? dan bert is the only person i do email
36. Whose your meanest friend? i don't have any
37. Whose the loudest? oh me
38. Whose the shyest? tray no question
39. Whose the smartest? charlie
40. Whose the wildest? um dominique
41. Whose your best friend? i have more than one
42. Who do you go for girl/guy advice? chris for a while but now i dont really need advice. im sort of stuck
43. Who knows all your secrets? umm court and keiko prob.
44. Whose the prettiest? i have some beautiful friends
45. Whose your cutest girl/guy friend? uh i dont know; like i said i have beautiful friends
46. Whose the most understanding? court
47. Whose the most honest? keiko
48. Whose the weirdest? me
49. Favorites
50. Movie: slc punk and american history x
51. Song: billy idol- kiss me deadly
52. Band/Group: jimmy eat world or glass eater or saves the day or weezer. too many there are more reel big fish
53. Store: i dont know? best buy?
54. Relative: my aunt
55. Sport: soccer i guess
56. Vacation Spot: hawaii
57. Ice Cream Flavor: coconut
58. Fruit: raspberry
59. Candy: almond joy or mounds
60. Car: mustang
61. Class: english.
62. Holiday: australia day
63. Day of the Week: friday
64. Color: green
66. Name for a Girl: hannah
67. Name for a Boy: rivers
68. In the past 24 hours have you:
69. Had a serious talk? ha no
70. Hugged someone? oh def!
71. Fought with a friend? nah
72. Cried? yeahhhhhh
73. Laughed? yeahhhhh
74. Made someone laugh? i hope so
75. Bought something? ummm jello. yes.
76. Cut your hair: haha yeah
78. Talked to someone you love? a few sentences
79. Missed someone? Yes
80. Have you Ever:
81. Done drugs? yeah
82. Eaten an entire box of oreos? no i dont really like them
83. Been dumped? yeah, i'm an old pro.
84. Had someone be unfaithful to you? i'll never know
85. Watched punky Brewster? no
86. Hiked a mountain? no
87. Stayed home on Saturday night, just because: yeah its routine.
88. Been in love? yeah
89. Seen the White house? no
90. Seen the Eiffel tower? yeah, in a picture but not up close
91. Tried smoking? yeah
92. Drank alcohol? yeah
93. Smoked marijuana? yeah
94. Played monopoly? yes
95. Seen Titanic? yeah its great
96. Kissed someone? yeah
97. French kissed someone? HE HE
98. Lost your virginity?no
99. Tried a weight loss program? like a diet? i have no self control
100. Jumped on a trampoline? yeah
101. Visited another country? yeah
102. Colored in a coloring book(and had fun)? haaaaaaaaha yeah
103. Had a bubble bath? yeah like at age 5.
104. Been on a plane? yes
105. Been on a boat? yes
106. Been on a train? yes last week. yeah court yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh
107. Been in a car accident? yeah
108. Ridden an elephant? no but a cammel yeah
109. Made a web page? Yep
110. Played with Barbies? yeah ive got like 23
111. Stayed up all night? yes... ahhhh the memories
112. Shoved stuff under your bed to make your room look clean? my bed has drawers underneath
113. Broken a bone? yes
114. Called a physchic or sex hotline? just 1-800-hotlips at robyns liek 11th birthday party.
115. Watched Jerry Springer? not intentionally
116. Gotten in trouble for talking in class? maybe just once or twice
117. Been afraid of the dark? yeah
118. Been in the hospital(not visiting)? no
119. Had stitches? yeah
120. Dumped someone and regretted it? No
121. Went out with more than one person at a time? lol. no
122. Lied? yep
123. Been arrested: yeah
124. Fallen asleep in class? like just a few times
125. Used food for something other than to eat? hahaha i dont remember.
126. Met a celebrity? No
127. Broken the law? not recently
128. Ever loved someone so much it made you cry? well ive cried because of someone i dont knwo if it was love
129. Hated yourself? everyday of my life
130. Been brokenhearted? my tears slip through the crack under my door
131. Broken someones? i might have...
132. Do You: .
133. Like to give hugs? Yeah
134. Like to walk in the rain? yeah or streak
135. Sleep with or without clothes on? not really
136. Prefer black or blue pens? Black
137. Dress up on Halloween? if i think of something good
138. Have a job? Not yet
139. Like to travel? yeah
140. Like someone? yeah
141. Sleep on your side, tummy or back? side.
142. Think your attractive? no.
143. Want to marry? yes, someday
144. Have a goldfish? eric does. its name is rambo.
145. Ever have the falling dream? Yeah
146. Have stuffed animals? yep
147. Go on vacation? yeah
148. What do you think about:
149. Abortion: prolife.
150. Bill Clinton: i dont think about him
151. Smoking: Gross
152. Eating Disorders: i think they suck.
153. Rap: sucks
154. Jerry Springer: sucks.
155. Suicide: bad
156. South Park: sucks
157. Summer: ouch my heart.
158. Tattoos: i think i might get one.
159. Piercing: its fine. i would do it if i coudl
160. Make-up: well i don't wear it.
161. Drinking: hmm...i'm a social drinker.
162. Guys: well some are nice
163. Girls: well some are nice
164. What do you think when you hear this name:
165. Jennifer: lopez
166. Lindsey: too much make up
167. Megan: irish name
168. Brandon: brittanys brother
169. Christina: haha
170. Angela: landsburrtrtyruihbk
171. Courtney: yeah c.j.!
172. Jeff: haha zoltan. dwmc
173. Mike: gio
174. Nikki: choppy
176. Lauren: ap euro
177. Derek: that guy
178. Lisa: best friend who moved away
179. Kristi: harrison. well thats because he just imed me. so i thought of him.... what?
180. Matt: rossi
181. Holly: berry. that one improv amy had to do
182. Jackie: peterson all around olympic gold medalist and friend
183. Cait: henderson
184. Caroline: well i think of carolina i havent seen her in a while
185. Joseph: bring me my colored coat, my amazing colored coat
186. Eline: i think of elaine
187. Patrick: ghost
188. Erin: keiko's friend
189. This or That:
190. Pierced nose or tongue? tongue
191. Be serious or funny? funny
192. Single or taken? taken
193. Simple or Complicated? Complicated
194. Law or anarchy? Law
195. MTV or VH1? neither
196. 7th Haven or Dawsons Creek? dawson
197. Sugar or salt? sugar
198. Silver or gold? silver
199. Tongue or belly button ring? tongue
200. Chocolate or flowers? CDs
201. Angels or miracles? angels
202. Color or Black-and-white photos? black and white
203. Sunrise or sunset? sunset
204. M&M?s or Skittles? mandms
205. Rap or Rock? rock
206. Stay up late or sleep in? both
207. TV or radio? TV
208. Hot or cold? Hot
209. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? tall
210. Sun or moon? moon
211. What time is it? 1 am
212. Diamond or Ruby? Ruby
213. Left or Right? left
214. 10 acquaintances or 1 bestfriend? 1 best friend
215. Vanilla or chocolate? chocolate
216. Kids or not? kids
217. Cat or dog? dog
218. Half empty or Half full? half empty
219. Mustard or ketchup? mustard
220. Newspaper or Magazine? magazine
221. Spring or Fall? spring
222. Give or receive? recieve
223. Rain or snow? rain
224. Lace or satin? satin
225. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? um i guess that depends on my mood
226. Happy or sad? happy
227. Corduroy or plaid? corduroy
228. Wonder or amazement? wonder
229. sneakers or sandals? sandals
230. McDonalds or Burger King? burger king
231. Blondes or Brunettes? Brunettes
232. Mexican or Italian food? mexican
233. Lights on or off? off
234. Duct tape or scotch tape? scotch tape
235. Candy or soda? pop
236. A house in the woods or the city? city
237. Pepsi or Coke? Coke
238. Nike or ADIDAS? adidas
239. 4 GIRLS ONLY!!
240. What do you look for in a guy? sense of humor.
Tough or hardcore guys? neither
Sweet or innocent guy? i guess sweet
Smart or Athletic guys? smart.
244. Favorite cologne on a guy? hugo boss.
245. Best gift a guy could give? his heart
246. Flowers. . . Sweet or wasteful? wasteful. one rose is plenty for one relationship
247. Sweetest guy you know? prob charlie.
266. Do you go to church? yeah
267. Do you like church? yeah
268. Why? I think its important
269. Whats your favorite kind of tree? Weeping Willow
270. Out of all of your friends, who has the phattest room? phattest lol. um me
271. When you look at a person with lime green tights on, whats the first thing that comes to your head? those are so cool
272. Whats the first thing that comes to your head when you hear/see *a computer? is harrison on lol. at least im honest.
273. A laptop: same thing?
274. A mismatched person: cool
275. A guy with long hair: roselle music staff!
276. A guy with spiked hair: original...
277. A girl with spiked hair: memories!
278. A tree with no leaves: the fall
279. A couch with a sheet over it: ive never seen that
280. Ronnie: what?
281. Raphael: teenage mutant ninja turtles
282. A guy wearing a necklace? i dont think anything
283. A girl wearing a hat: i wonder if it serves a purpose
284. A mall: death
285. Abercrombie and Fitch: ordinary
286. Aeropostale: inexpensive
287. Hot Topic: wannabe
288. Pacific Sun: overpriced
289. Saved by the Bell: on way too early
290. Boy Meets World: get the good looking guy... TOPANGA!.
291. Beverly Hills 90201: i never understood.
292. A stereo system: music?
293. A gun: wheres my dad. mr NRA
294. Someone shout out out IM EATING PEANUTS!!!!!: ive never witnessed this.
295. Someone shout out I HAVE TO PEE!!?: then i have to go too. im a follower!
296. Someone shout out WHATS THE ANSWER?!?: i wish i knew
297. A desk: homeworkd
298. A teacher: depends on which one
299. A doctor: don't know enough
300. What do you think of the questions they make you answer at the doctors office? some are fine
301. Do you like the number 300? i dont have aproblem with it
302. What about 301? read the above answer
303. Are you getting REALLY bored now? Kinda
304. Are you annoyed? no audrey
306. Do you think it can exceed 500? theses are bad questions
307. I heard about a 500 question survey once but I never got to
see it.
308. What are your last words? I haven't had them yet.. because im not dead...
309. Thats nice, the survey isnt over yet: Then stop asking stupid questions!
310. Do you have to pay bills? No
311. Do you want to pay bills? no
312. How do you think your parents feel when THEY have to pay
bills? Like shit.
313. Do you do your own laundry? sometimes
314. Do you clean all the bathrooms in your house? No
315. How many bathrooms are in your house? 2
316. How many TVs are in your house? like 5
317. How many phones are in your house? like 5
318. How many tables are in your cafeteria? a lot
319. How many beds are in your house? 3
320. How many couches are in your house? 1 right now lol
321. What are you thinking about right now? man i have to get up early tomorrow
322. How many desks are in your Math class? like 30?
323. Do you get a lot of math homework? yeah
324. Do you hang out with your friends a lot? yeah
325. Are you getting sick of this survey? yea
326. Have you seen Clueless? yeha
327. What are your opinions of that movie? its nice
328. Did you think when you first started watching it that Cher
and Josh were gonna get hooked up? i dont know
329. Did you think that Christian was gay? i dont remember
330. I did. If you didnt, do you think youre a tard? what?.
331. If you had to pick a religion to be, what would you be? lutheran
332. What are you thinking about right now? like my back hurting lol
333. What is your favorite store in the mall nearest you? i dont know i dont really like it there
335. What is the mall called? woodfield.
336. Do they have a store called Belks? no
337. How about a major sports store? yeah?
338. Is there a pet shop? no...
339. Whats your all time favorite font? oh man times new roman.
340. What do you like better, lap tops or computers? desktops... if thats what you meant..
341. Spaghetti or Ziti? i dont know ziti. is he nice
342. Macaroni w/cheeze or w/sauce? cheese
343. Paintings or photos? paintings
344. Stripes or solids? stripes
345. Basements or attics? basements
346. Do you like crushes because of their looks or personality? Personality
347. Life or no life? No life
348. Individual or just like everyone else? Individual
349. Loud or quiet? Loud
350. Shy or Rambunctious? rambunctionsindsoandik
351. Refrigerator or freezer? refrigerator
352. Carpet or tile? Carpet
353. Marble or wood? marble
354. Plaid or stripes? stripes
355. Stripes or dots? dots
356. Dots or lines? dots
357. Now what time is it? 118am
358. Monopoly or Life? Monopoly
359. Uno or Skip-Bo? uno.
360. Beauty and the Beast or Aladdin? Beauty and the beast
361. Toy Story 1 or Toy Story 2? 1
362. Armageddon or Deep Impact? armageddon let the light it
363. Youve Got Mail or Ever After? ever after
364. Sound of Muzick or My Fair Lady? sound of music
365. BSB or *NSYNC? they both suck.
366. Joey or Joe? Joey
367. Matthew or Matt? Matt
368. Jonathan or John? John
369. Patrick or Pat? Patrick
370. Michael or Mike? Mike
371. Mike or Mikey? Mike
372. Mickey or Mikey? Mikey
373. Charles or Chuck? charlie
374. Jason or Jay? Jay
375. Dawn or Sunny? ew neither id call it buddy or soemthing
376. Light or dark? Dark
377. Top or bottom? bottom definitely i hate the top it hurts my arms
378. Higher or lower? Higher
379. Left or right? I'm still goin left.
380. Big or small? i dont know big?
381. Dad or mom? Mom
382. Sitcoms or movies? movies
383. TV movies or real movies? real movies
384. Scanner or Xerox machines? scanner
385. Church or Mass? church
386. Boat or canoe? boat
387. Ocean or lake? ocean
397. Do you like school? sometimes
398. I dont.: did I give you any indication that I cared? No I don't think so.
399. Do most of your friends? no
400. Do most of your friends go to your school? yeah
401. Do you have more younger friends or older friends? Older
408. Would you ever like someone 3 years younger than you? i don't know. not now thats my brother
409. Do you think that im crazy for doing so? no
410. When you like someone, do you tell them right away? well yeah but i think they know already
411. Do you wait for signs? signs of him hating me dont stop me
412. Do you think i should? i guess?
413. What if there really are no signs? then that sucks
415. Whats your favorite letter of the alphabet? i like the whole thing
416. Do you think that Z is a cool letter? yeah
417. Ok, i think that Im bored with creating this survey now so
Im gonna stop. Only cuz i wanna fill it out now.
418. So, do you have any final words? sure. im kind of tired and my ass hurts.
419. Say something great about the person who sent you this
here: umm.I stole it from her site.
420. What time is it now? 1 24 am

I think a good product would be "Baby Duck Hat." It's a fake baby duck, which you strap on top of your head. Then you go swimming underwater until you find a mommy duck and her babies, and you join them. Then all of the sudden, you stand up out of the water and roar like Godzilla. Man those ducks really take off! Also Baby Duck Hat is good for parties.

"Have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires,
and a touch that never hurts."
Charles Dickens

"Tonight I'll stay awake long enough to stop breathing
and I wonder how long it will take before I pass out drunk off night skies
and lying on hills with wet grass below and blue black above-
I will carry all the weights tonight
cause I keep remembering the day that you said you might go crazy
if you spent one more minute with me and I just don't know-
is one more minute going to kill you now?"
saves the day

turnabout is soon. this puts me in a state of automatic rejection. its kind of funny. maybe i'll ask ben. i know that kid loves me deep down no matter how much he claims not to. that's a kid who watches me eat lunch. its a deep relationship, i dont understand how you could turn down someone you have such a history with. speaking of histories... dreyer! justin and i go all the way back to the lunch line first semester of freshman year when he threw the fruit from his lunch at me. i just want to buy a cool dress and get all beautified even though pretty audrey is an oxy moron.

Today i learned that billy idol song. kiss me deadly. i really like this chord that its in it... oh lol i just looked and its G. i thought i would have a cool name. its still pretty.

I have a lot of homeowork to do before school on monday but the chances are i will just spend all sunday doing it instead of beign smart and spreading it out through the next 3 days and tonight.

i get my lincencia por manejar in a month in a half. so thats cool. not like i have anywhere to go. well its january and there are a few birthdays worth mentioning this month. Charlie's is on the 16th and Jessica's is on the 20th. Greg's is the 24th. happy early birthday.

everyone should clear the calender on FEBRUARY 14th and 15th. why? because those are the days of the winter play and i'm in it!!! and FEBRUARY 14th is also my birthday! and valentines day!!!! what better way to spend that lovely holiday than to see a play!! with me?! and lauren of coursE!

I often wonder if the amount of pain you feel after someone leaves your life forever is in direct effect with the amount of love you had for them when they were in your life. I think that love can be felt by anyone and there is no age limit, as simply as pain can be felt by anyone. sometimes the people who you think are never listening are really the ones who understand you the best and have been listening all along.

"I felt that i was not, never had been and never would be a living part of this overpoweringly solid and deeply meaningful world around me."
a seperate peace

"Well the wind is blowing
where am I going
off a bridge and falling
nobody's calling
on the ground and laying
nobody's praying"
the white stripes

I just wish Dominique was my friend. I'm dreaming of impossible outcomes.

"Kiss me deadly tonight."
generation x

"take my heart and keep it with you, i'll never know another love again."
504 plan