It really sucks when you think someone feels a certain way about you and you start to feel confident and happy and then it all just gets shot to hell because its relaly not like that at all.

"It is thus, if there is any rule, that we ought to die--neither as victim nor as fanatic, but as the seafarer who can greet with an equal eye the deep that he is entering, and the shore that he must leave."
E.M. Forster

i'm depressed. i just wish people would tell me how they feel for once.