i can't sleep. i cant stop needing you to hold on to me. i tried too hard to analyze and interpret everything you said. i thought i knew what i wanted but i didnt. and right now i just need you to stay in my life. i dont care what we were/are/will be i just need you in my life. to be that person who i watch movies with all day and who i can talk to for hours and who i can just sit in silence with for hours. just because its not awkward. and to be that person whose family cares about me more than my own seems to. i hope you read this tomorrow at 615 in the morning, could you call me when you do? ill stay up all night. i desperately need to tell you that i want to be friends. its ideal.