so sometimes i go to the wrong people with my problems and i dont really think about it affecting anyone else but me. i suppose thats a part of the selfishness that i shoudl work hard to get rid of. i'm sorry it bothered you so much and if i had known before i wouldn't have considered it. im sure i could have finally decided something on my own but at the time i felt helpless. as for the rest of it. i understand the affectionate thing and i dont really care and i don't think we have different ideas on relationships i think we have 2 different personalities and the way we behave and act in relationships is in direct correlation with the way we behave an act outside of relationships. its not anything that bothers me and i dont care about. there are thousands of other ways of spending time together and having fun that don't revolve around the "romantic" stuff and i intend on figuring out all of them with you. friendship is the key element in any relationship and i love being your friend. i love spending time with you and hanging out and talking abotu everything and learning more about you. its fun and i like it. relationships don't have to be stereotypical lovey-teenage-romance ones. and i like to consider ours unique and i like it and its not supposed to be perfect, but its supposed to be what works. so i think our relationship should be one that just works. and i think it is. and i like that you tell me things because then we can figure out what does work and what doesn't. so i don't know. i'll probably call you before you read this because i really want to talk to you now but ill wait till you get home.