i walk to closely and tread on your heels. i can't stop this antagonizing urge to drive away from everything i know. i hate the familiarities of my dull uneventful life. i need this feeling to assure myself that someday i will be okay. i know that no matter what i do i will never be completely okay. i know you don't feel the same way about me and its not the end of the world. i mean how can someone expect so much after so little time? i don't know either. it is what it is. im not really sure where this puts "us" i hope not at the end. i dont want that to happen because its too much fun right now. and i dont know what youre thinking because its obviously 230 in the morning and youre most likely asleep but i wish i could see you right now just so i could ask you or talk to you or something and i cant even really type right now but whatever. i don't even want to post this because i feel so lame. im sorry i said it. i dont know what i was thinking. i guess i was just caught up in a good mood. whatever the case is, i hope we can get back whatever we had... because i liked it... still do like it.... want to keep it... in a heart shaped box... yeah that was unnecessary.. well its late. now. well. its easter i guess techinically. im planning on spending the day at the grandparents reading. i want to talk to youuuuuuuuuu sooooooooooo baddddddddlllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and i dont even know what i would say. i need to think about that now.