Your words lost meaning after they unintentionally broke down the barrier between loss and defeat. i feel inebriated without the high, just the insomniatic impulse to never close my eyes. closing my eyes and revealing vulnerability, accepting my imperfections, admiting i feel pain; these are events that take place only in my solitude but you wish you could bear witness to. only in your dreams. i'm as transparently lucid as you. and you're glass. i stay awake at all hours and at all costs. i can't reisk being hit by your rapid fire of vapid vulgarities. onver undulged youth, mispent adolescence has left me painfully unaware of my insignificance. don't tell me i belong.