today was tiring even though i did nothing. i just want to read farenhighsihtjkrng 451 now but i dont knwo what i did with the book. i should find it. soon/ damn. war is stupid. the whole world should just be destroyed now by some form of unpredicted extreme radiation instead of having to wait hundreds of years for global warming to have the final say with the green house effect. everyday i go to school with people who don't care about the world around them. how can people be so content with their ignorance? like its an accomplishment to care about nothing but yourself. and like you're not the same as everyone else when you just ignore whats really going on. In all of my classes there has been not one discussion on the war. I think its almost sick. If its not about petty high school drama shit then the student body doesnt care. or maybe its not that they don't care. maybe they aren't capable of caring. maybe the idea of something bigger than themselves is a concept beyond their grasp. maybe i think too much.. about everything. the only part of my school day that i could possibly look forward to is english. i feel like the whole day leading up to english is gradually killing my much wanted brain cells and then they magically regrow in english. Maybe english is just a fun class with fun people but i think i really do think in that class... more so than others. and the fact that we actually have DISCUSSIONS about things that really matter in the world, materialism, immediate gratification, political correctness, makes the class that much more worth it. My next essay is going to be on materialism if i can choose. because thats a topic i can really delve into and meet my potential. whatever that may be.