nayz] (verb): the act of turning some into a villian.no. youre right. its not a real word. but it should be. if E.V.O.O. is a real word now, villainize certainly deserves to be. there are a thousand things i wish i had the ability to say or express regarding my recently realized disenchantment. i'm so sick of fighting. that is the understatement of the century. thats like saying Brutus wasn't a good friend. i'm tired of being portrayed as selfish. i'm tired of feeling like i don't know what i would do without him in my life and being unsure of whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. i'm sick of crying all night, feeling like an idiot, and looking like shit the next morning. i'm tired of always feeling like i'm doing something wrong. i'm sick of feeling like an annoyance, like a hindrance, like a frustration. i'm tired of rejecting and being rejected. i'm tired of yelling and being yelled at. i'm tired of rolling eyes when i go for a run, when i work out, when i get done eating. i'm tired of pretending that arguing is the same as communicating. i'm tired of the expectation of instant change. i'm tired of the apathy.
i'm scared of moving forward. i'm scared of staying here. i'm scared of holding on. i'm scared of letting go.
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