and it doesn't matter what i say at this point. you're so far away. and i'm farther from you everyday. and i'm sorry i didnt call you when my grandma died. and i'm sorry i've done nothing but push you away since i was 16. i'll never be as perfect as you want me to be. but i'm just so tired of setting expectations that exceed all reality.

"after all I'm still a jerk playing with matches
it's just that he's not around to play along
I'm still an asshole playing with candles
Blowing out wishes blowing out dreams
Just sitting here and trying to decipher
what's written in Braille upon my skin."
-reginaspektor