talk about indecisive

i need to run more. i need to make excuses less. i need to rejoin bally. hopefully its actually just $20 a month. my knees hurt and i want to start swimming instead because everyone knows the eliptical is just a waste of time and does absolutely nothing as far as exercise is concerned. i really don't want to study for these tests tomorrow. i'm doomed. i hate studying in my house because i just come up with different excuses to eat things when i'm not hungry. i have to go to the library to actually get anything done without exceeding my daily calorie limit. maybe i will go to the library but that means i have to put jeans back on and i really hate that idea. plus people in the library aren't even quiet.

i really just want this semester and all future years of my life that are counted in semesters to be over.  i'm already sick of grad school and i havent even gotten there yet. im terrified to take the GRE. im terrified to retake the LSAT and score lower than i already have. i don't know if its worth the money to take a GRE class.  linda wants me to take the summer off from school and just focus on the GRE. this idea makes a lot of sense but then in the fall i will be applying to schools and also taking physics and micro. plus i don't know if these places even accept micro that doesnt have gen. bio as a prereq. if thats the case i  might be dividing my fall up between schools AGAIN and that would just be awful.

my tentative plan right now is to see how i actually end up doing in  biochem. if i can pull off an A, then i will continue. but realisically i will continue anyway even if i get a B so that is kind of a pointless statement. I guess i also have to see how hard physics is before i plan to take the GRE. IF i do well in biochem and IF i do well in phsyics, i might not take a GRE class. but i probably will anyway. so if i take micro over the summer i will likely take it at UIC because it only meets 2 or 3 days a week and i can take the train and i don't have to go to dekalb. i can also take a GRE class over the summer if i do this. Then i would only have physics left to take in the fall while i'm applying.

The problem is i need to take the GRE relatively early because my score will determine whether or not I take the LSAT again. If i don't do extremely well on the GRE, I will retake the LSAT. i might even pay for ANOTHER LSAT class. I absolutely need an RX for atavan before any of this goes down. I need to get in touch with professors re. letters of rec.

but right now i have to work on getting 100s on these tests tomorrow. because i think that is the only choice i can actually make today. but first im going to procrastinate and literally draw a flow chart of the next 12 months.