in the end, i can see myself not being what you want. right now though, i don't know how close you are to figuring that out for yourself.
i am a truly boring person and i'm ok with that. i don't live on the edge of anything. i care about money and stability and my future and my career. i think about where i want to be in 10 years. i'm not spontaneous. i would rather own a house than be married. i don't know if i'll ever be ready for the commitment of marriage. i'm not as smart as i like to think i am, or as clever, or as interesting. i'm disorganized and messy. i appreciate order, but not enough to maintain it. i don't have any problem with the 9-5. i don't need constant stimulation. i can't ever really stop thinking. most of this thinking is just me over exaggerating and over analyzing every interaction or conversation i have with anyone until i've beat it to death and no longer have any idea what the initial intent or meaning actually was. i rarely have anything positive to say about myself but i don't think i'm really that self-pitying or self-loathing. i guess more emotionally self-deprecating than anything else. i fit well into stereotypes and rarely defy them. i will always hate dressing well/getting dressed up/wearing anything other than sweatpants. this is the most annoying aspect of law school.
i'm already annoyed with this whole post.
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