its so perfect im so perfect youre so perfect youre not here

my friend lonesome's unconditional.

tonight i feel ambitious and so does my foot. ha
haha

take a load off benny take a load off for free. take a load off benny, and put it on me.

im really tired. i dont know what to do with myself. im so tired. i have homework. ahhh anythign for salenas.

Kevin says he likes this better. i dont know what to say. marshalls sucks and so do you!


hahaha
okay steve. im ready for this hangout.

i cant my darling i lov eyou so

i have a dead journal

http://www.deadjournal.com/users/audreyastray/

rock out on that

.unconditional love.

to me you can tell the posts that i'm here at because theyre so like random and "pinchu"

man you are freakin! my cherry sank to the bottom. that is not even funny. it is so hotlike on my leg right now. just stop. (laugh)

my car battery died tonight hahahaha. well. thanks dad for that jump. remember when we jumped harrisons car that night? that was fantastic. H.O.T.S.O.M.B. loved that. probably the best feeling in the world.

man my ass is hot. sitting on courts hot leg. i hate marshalls but tonight wasnt so bad. it actually kind of FLew. pinchy pinchu

"Whats that song? (sings) somethings never do change, never do change. to me its queen mab"
(laughing) "something corporate"
"oh yeah"

I was the one worth leaving

I feel I must interject here, you're getting carried away,
feeling sorry for youself with these revisions and gaps in history.
So let me help you remember. I've made charts
and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why I have to leave

So please back away and let me go

don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

you've got a lure I can't deny,
but you've had your chance so say goodbye

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh iwish youd grow up!!!!!!! i hope you realize this isnt going to bring you any closer to finding out who you really are. you know your ejust going to end up putting yourself in the line of fire to get hurt. and its not even worth warning you because you adhere to no one's advice. so we'll just sit this one out and let you make your mistakes and realize that its never going to get you anywhere acting like this. maybe three years ago i could have sympathized with your choices but youre almost 17. you'll be feeling empty and lost by the time the new year rolls around. i dont know what to say other than, what are you doing? some of us have been falling a long time before we actually hit the bottom.

my wrists hurt. i spend too much of my day typing.

tonight i was at the movies with courtney. the previews hadnt started when suddendly,,,,, my phone rang. who coul dit be? Kevin Cell. okay it was kevin. so then i told him to come see grind and he told me to go to steak and shake and so then he went to steak and shake and i watched the movie. so it was kind of pointless.

I hope I'm dead by the time you read this. I love you.

i was saved by grace, but destroyed by naivety. and i lied to myself and said it was for the best.

The night is becokoning although I have nowhere to go but home
Feels good to be alone
With every turn comes a new frame of mind if I could frame my mind
Where would it hang

I crack a window and feel the cool air cleanse my every pore
As I pour my poor heart out
To a radio song that's patient and willing to listen
My volume drowns it out

But that's OK cause I sound better then him anyway any day
Yeah my voice is sweet as salt
I search for comfort and I've found it where I've found it many times before

"You see life is like that. We change, that's all. You see, the guy I am now is not the guy I was then. If the guy I was then met the guy I am now he'd beat the shit out of me. Those are the facts. "